A New Beginning
by suzie sheelf and Magic Dreamer
The messenger ran once he had delivered the letter, Lady
warned him that the Lady Elewen might not be too happy to receive a
letter from Imladris. How right she was, the look on the she-elf's face
had unnerved him, when she saw the seal on the letter. Remembering her
manners, she looked up with a sigh, meaning to thank the messenger, but
shrugged to herself when she saw he had left. Scanning the contents of
the letter briefly, she went to find her friend.
Elewen was annoyed, really annoyed. She was practically stomping
through the glades and up and down ladders, around branches trying to
find her best friend. Every now and again she would call out "Sammy!"
She ignored the looks she got from the other elves, who had learnt over
the years she had spent there, that is was best to leave the young elf
alone when in one of theses moods. Minya looked up and sighed as she
turned to the elf she was talking to, "I think she got another letter
from Imladris." The other just smiled sadly and nodded. Few of the
elves of Lothlorien knew exactly why the foster daughter of Lord Elrond
had returned with the Lord and Lady; to say that they were surprised
was an understatement. It had now been nigh on 100 years and she had
not been home. What happened in Mithlond? Was the question still
uppermost in most of their minds.
Elewen was pretty sure where to find Samrendiel, but needed to check
all the places where she might be on the way there, just in case, which
made for slow progress and did not help her mood at all. Of course
Elewen's mood had not been that great to begin with for years now, but
she had been getting better. She had been slowly returning to the
person she had been before they had gone to Mithlond. It is said that
an elf who hears the sea will never find rest under the eaves of the
forest. Many elves thought at first it was this restlessness that made
her so unlike herself, but Elewen was a Noldo, the call of the sea
should not affect her as it would the Sindar so it could not be the
full reason about what had changed the girl from Imladris.
Today was different from any other day she had spent in Lothlorien.
Today, all her hard won progress away from the sad, angry elf she had
been when she arrived with The Lord and Lady towards the calm, logical
elf she used to be was lost. Yes, she still had days where she
remembered the lack of trust, from the people she had trusted the most,
and the indignity of being locked up because they were frightened she
would lose her composure. She did not like being tricked, and at times
she felt like striking out though she tried to take it out during sword
practice and on archery targets.
"Sammy, I figured I'd find you here," Elewen said as she entered a
small glade on the outskirts of Caras Galadhon. She then turned her
attention to the dark haired maiden that turned as she had entered.
"Quel amrun Melniandiel. How are you feeling today?"
"Very well, thankyou. I assume you were needing Samrendiel?"
"Yes I do, if I may steal her from you for a little while?"
Melniandiel laughed lightly, "But of course. We were just discussing
names for this little one," She put her hand on her stomach.
"Samrendiel, feel free to return anytime. You as well Elewen are always
Samrendiel quickly hugged her friend promising to return later in the
week and followed Elewen to a small talan a few trees away. Once there
Elewen nearly pounced on her friend thrusting the letter at her. "This
is what Lady Galadriel's messenger had for me a letter! From ada, I
mean Lord Elrond. Read it."
Elewen paced the flet as Sammy read the following:
My dear Elewen,
First let me say that what I told you in Mithlond remains true. I have
and will always think of you as a daughter. I hope the time you have
spent in Lothlorien has helped heal your heart, and can understand the
reasons behind what we had done.
Daily I have thought about you and wonder how you fare. The Lady
Galadriel has let me know that you are doing well, but I have wished
you would write to me yourself.
We all miss you terribly here. Arwen writes often telling us about you.
But it is not the same.
I do regret the reason for this letter, other than asking about your
health and psych. I have received word that Lord Thranduil still wishes
to send his daughter to Imladris for further education.
Before Celebrian went to the west we had discussed this if you recall.
I had asked if you would be a mentor for the princess during her stay
and chaperone until she became accustomed to our ways. I had
thought to have Celebrian help me in this matter as well, but now that
is impossible. As the princess will be leaving the Woodland Realm just
after the next full moon. I need to know if you are amendable to this
or if other arrangements should be made.
I will not force you to return. I only ask that you reply and tell me
your future plans so I may find another, if necessary.
Glorfindel and the twins send their love as do I. We all miss you very
much and hope to hear from you soon.
Elrond, Lord of Imladris
Samrendiel finished reading and looked up at the agitated elf woman
beside her. "What are you going to do?"
"Go home of course. I never go back on my word, as Elrond has reminded
me, I did agree to be the princess's mentor. But why couldn't King
Thranduil have waited another two months, " Elewen lamented.
Melniandiel would have born her child by then and you could return with
me to Imladris. I do not look forward to returning without you, nin
Sammy smirked, "I thought you might, even though Lord Elrond is
allowing you to excuse yourself of the obligation. Elewen, I know it
will not be the same for you without Ilweran there, and I do wish that
I could return with you, but I have to be here for Melniadriel. And
Lord Elrond has not changed what he feels for you, nor will he; he says
so right here." Sammy brandished the letter. "He is an elf of his word.
Glorfindel and the twins are also there, as well as your other friends.
Nothing has really changed, mellon, except for the way you see
yourself. Yes, we know who your parents are, but we loved you before we
knew that and we love you still."
Elewen hugged her friend, "I know Sammy. I love you too. I still wish
you could come with me now; I would feel more comfortable then, more
myself. I would love to stay here, but." The elf paused and struggled
with a thought for a moment before continuing, "Oh, I do hate to admit
this, as much as I do not want to return home I have a feeling that if
I do not return soon I will never go back. I guess that's how Ilweran,
amme, felt about returning to Lindon. At least the job of helping the
Princess Leannan adjust to life in Imladris will keep my mind off other
things until you return."
Sammy smiled, "Why don't you take Vanima with you? You need a new
handmaiden, since Minya has decided she wants to stay here." Sammy said
Elewen thought for a moment, "Perhaps you are right Sammy. Even
if I don't want one, it will be expected that I have one. I like the
girl, she has spirit." Elewen said smiling. "I will ask Lady Galadriel
if Vanima has an assignment yet, and then ask Vanima is she herself is
willing to come and live in Imladris." She then turned and looked at
Sammy with concern, "You will follow wont you, after the birth of
Sammy nodded and smiled. "I will come to Imladris six months after the
birth. I promised Melniandiel I would stay that long. You can't get rid
of me that easily." She joked.
Elewen hugged her friend, "Thankyou nin mellon. I will send a message
saying I will return on the proviso that you can return with me." Sammy
looked at Elewen. Elewen smiled, "You know I can't get along without
you and you will be returning, just later that is all, " she laughed
Sammy knew her friend was nervous about her return home and since she
would not be returning with her it could easily happen that she might
be forbidden to return, despite the open invitation that was tendered
in Mithlond. This neatly solved that concern. "Oh Elewen, sometimes you
are too devious for your own good," Samrendiel joined her laughter.
Elrond smiled as he greeted his sons and Glorfindel as he sat down to
join them at breakfast.
"Nin mellon, you are in good humour this morning, may I ask why?"
Glorfindel asked as he watched the Elf Lord.
"I received a letter from Lothlorien. Elewen is coming home."
A month later.
Elrond watched from the balcony as the group from Lothlorien came
entered courtyard. 'Has it really been almost 100 years of men since
Celebrian and Ilweran sailed to Valinor?' The pain and loss was still
so fresh. 'Oh Celebrian' he thought, 'I miss you so much every day.'
He watched as Elewen rode in, and he sighed to himself, she was so much
like her mother. As much as he missed his wife, the Lord of Imladris
also missed his best friend and fellow healer. Glorfindel, he mused was
taking Ilweran's leaving quite well, better than he had thought. Lord
Elrond then shook his head at his foolishness. It was obvious, if one
thought about it, that Glorfindel was doing a better job at hiding his
feelings. Elrond told himself to remember to do something for the elf
lord for helping him get through the last century. He was sure the
blonde haired elf was just as hurt when Elewen refused to return to
Imladris from Mithlond.
Sighing again, he went down to greet his foster daughter. First he
turned to a nearby aide and asked that he inform Lord Glorfindel that
they had guests and his attendance was required. If he was to meet with
her ire, he thought Glorfindel could have his fair share.
As he walked the passages towards the courtyard he continued to
ruminate, but now his thoughts turned towards the girl who was coming
home. She had taken the news of her ancestry very well. It was the fact
that it had been kept from her for so long had not gone down so well.
And worse still the fact that they had not trusted her and locked her
in a room with Sammy while the ships sailed. He shook his head as he
ruefully remembered that day. Then the message from Lothlorien,
informing him that Elewen would be staying longer as she was still not
ready to return to Imladris, it took all his powers of persuasion and
finally having to directly order Glorfindel to keep him from going and
fetching her. He stopped walking and passed a hand across his eyes as
he recalled what he had thought then - ' I have lost my wife, my
friend, and now my daughter.'
But Elewen was home now. Yes, she had remembered that she had agreed to
be a mentor for the princess of Mirkwood. Elrond smiled to himself,
Leannan would be good for Elewen, and she would help her take her mind
off things for awhile. Elewen could even teach the princess some
fighting skills, much to Thranduil's disgust. Remembering Silinde's
attitudes from Mithlond, Elrond grinned.
Perhaps the princess would rub off on Elewen and achieve what Celebrian
and Galadriel could not; teach Elewen how to be a real lady, not just
at feasts and special occasions. At that thought Elrond laughed out
loud, ignoring the stares from his staff. Shaking his head, he moved
on. Elewen like her mother was a shieldmaiden and would have it no
He continued musing as he waited. Elewen had agreed to come home on the
condition that Samrendiel could come too. Elrond was pleased with this,
as he liked the girl and the two were fast friends. He would not go
back on the open invitation he had offered to Samrendiel in Mithlond.
Haldir and Galadriel had also reinforced his opinion of their
friendship and agreed that Samrendiel in Imladris would be beneficial.
Haldir had said that. 'Those two are joined at the hip, and apart from
giving Sammy a chance at furthering her own studies, she could also
help Elewen with the princess.' Though he had mentioned did not envy
his sister with that task.
Was it really only two weeks ago when the letter came informing him that
Samrendiel would not be returning with Elewen? Despite Galadriel
sending a missive that Elewen did indeed leave Caras Galadhon as
expected Elrond had spent the last few weeks worrying that Elewen would
not return, that she would turn back and stay until Samrendiel could
travel with her. He had made a mental note then, to ask Elewen why, he
was curious as to what could keep her and Elewen apart during this
stressful return to Rivendell.
This letter also stated that Elewen would not be travelling
alone, part of her escort was a new handmaiden. Galadriel had provided
her a young maiden by the name of Vanima, the name sounded rather
familiar he thought. Apparently the two had become quite friendly, but
what happened to Minya? Had Elewen finally driven her handmaiden
insane? He laughed to himself. Does Vanima know what she is in for?
Elrond made another mental note to ask Elewen about the poor she-elf.
Elrond walked out and stood atop the stairs ready to greet his foster
daughter, her new maid and the rest of the party. Elladan and Elrohir
were there hugging their sister, Elrond watched for Elewen's reaction,
and was pleased to see her enthusiastically hugged them back.
Elrond felt a presence beside him. "She's home then."
"Yes Elewen is finally home." Elrond sighed.
"Do you think she is still angry with us?"
Elrond looked at Glorfindel and placed a hand on his shoulder, "I do
not know nin mellon. She seems happy to see the twins." The elf Lord
smiled at this, he knew the blonde eldar had greatly missed the
impetuous elf maid, as well.
Glorfindel sighed, "Sometimes I think it would have been best if we had
relented and let her sail with Ilweran."
Elrond looked at Glorfindel in shock. "Nin mellon, you can not mean
that. You know it is not true, you fought hard to make her realise it
was not her time, and you know that Ilweran and Gil-galad needed time
to them selves." He looked at Glorfindel and saw the pain that lingered
in his eyes. He put a hand on his shoulder in understanding. "If she is
still not happy, we will give her the choice."
Glorfindel just nodded, he knew Elrond was right. As much as he was
looking forward to Elewen coming home he was also dreading it. As much
as he loved and cared for Elewen, she reminded him too much of his
close friend. But he had made a promise to Ilweran to look after her
daughter, and there was that something else, that something he did not
wish to dwell on. He looked at the elf maid in the courtyard and hope
that she had made her peace and had forgiven them.
By unspoken consent they both stayed where they were. They would let
Elewen do as she would. They did not want her to feel more pressured by
their presence. They watched as Elewen introduced her handmaiden and
the rest of her party to the twins and the others who had come to greet
Despite being happy at seeing her brothers again, Elewen was not happy
to be home, her anger still raged when she remembered the treachery of
her elders. Even now she felt it boil up inside as she glimpsed Lord
Elrond and his accomplice standing atop the stairs. She thought of
going to her rooms and composing herself before dealing with those two,
but then she saw Elrond's weary face. Her heart softened and her anger
subsided. 'Oh ada' she thought to herself. 'He must be missing Lady
Celebrian something terrible.' Her eyes moved to Glorfindel, saw the
pain and loss echoed in his eyes. He and Ilweran were very close,
closer than I thought, she mused to herself.
Well, I am home now, time to start my life over. But Eru help anyone
who calls me princess.
She took a breath to brace herself and moved towards the steps.
Elladan, Elrohir, and Vanima watched as Elewen went to greet Elrond and
Glorfindel. All three watched with bated breath. Vanima knew that
Elewen was hurting; why she did not know, but she stayed behind and
worried for her mistress. "Mae govannen, nin sell. Cormamin ele lle,
nae saian luume." Elrond said, arms open in a welcoming way.
"Mae govannen ada, ta naa quel na nai mar." She stepped into his
embrace. Elrond held his daughter tightly not wanting to her let Elewen
go. As Elewen slipped her arms around Elrond and hugged him back, 'I
have missed this' Elrond thought to himself.
Elewen looked over at Glorfindel who grinned at her. "Suilad neth min,
oio naa elealla alasse." He said smiling, "Do you have a hug for this
Elf Lord as well?"
At seeing Glorfindel's sad, put on expression, Elewen laughed and cast
herself into Glorfindel's arms. Hugging her close he spun her around,
then placing her gently back on the ground held her at arm length. "You
have been greatly missed neth min."
With a genuine smile Elewen looped her arms with Elrond and Glorfindel,
and led the way into the house. In the courtyard three elves let out a
"Mae govannen nin sell, Cormamin ele lle, nae saian luume"
(Well met my daughter, My heart sings to see thee, it has been to long)
"Mae govannen ada, ta naa quel na nai mar"
(Well met father, it is good to be home)
"Suilad neth min, oio naa elealla alasse"
(Hello young one, ever thy sight is a joy)