Tea

- jan-u-wine

This time,
they tell me,
you
waited
by my side,
 
this time
you
welcomed
me
back to the lands of Light.
 
Strangely quiet,
that light,
 
fused with honey'd sun and
leaf-dapple,
 
running its soft waves upon
my closed eyes.
 
I wish nothing more than to
drift
longer
within these half-dreams -
 
to drift and forget
and
wake
and sleep
in the heavy warmth
of Spring.
 
And yet.....
 
As if we were still
upon the Road,
 
I feel you beside me,
your breath narrowed
with fear,
 
waiting with a troubled patience
that denies time.
 
I gather the sweetness of my dreams to me,
holding them as I would the summer blossoms
of Home.
 
It is time to come back to the world.
 
Trees with leaves gold as the sun.
Sky soft with white-wisped blue.
 
Bird-song
and voices I do not know,
hushing in whispers and shouts.....
 
Laughter.....
 
your laughter,
spilling like crystal water into the day.
 
I never thought to hear you laugh again.
 
I must laugh myself:
 
At your side, in the very grass of the field,
rests a glazed pot and two cups.
 
Sea-blue and rose-red they are.
 
the soft smell of leaves,
deep-drifted in lazy, sun-warmed, caramel autumn
spills
from the pot.
 
It is better than ale, this.
 
It speaks of Home.
 
I see you must pour with your left hand.
 
I cannot make words pass my lips.
 
Your thumb sketches circles upon the warmed,
earthen-blue of the cup,
 
your fingers hold to it so tightly I fear that it
(or you)
shall break.
 
I
can hold a cup
in my left hand,
too, you know.
 
My right
finds yours,
hidden beneath
the haven of your cloak.
 
The white of the binding
startles me.
 
Like warm earth embracing
bared roots,
the brown of my hand covers
yours.
 
In silence, we share
the ordinary comfort of the tea.
 
With a joy
made sparse
by eyes which will not meet mine,
 
I understand:
 
nothing shall be
ordinary
 
to you -
 
to us,
 
ever again.
 
 
I bow my head
and find a smile
for you:
 
an ordinary smile
for a most ordinary hobbit.